CLUELESS

do you want to see something new?

2011-08-27T01:17:00.004+08:00

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

NEW HAIRSTYLE WITH BANGS :D

first i wanna do pixie or bob style but then, the stylist said "try this first and if u dont like it, i'll cut however you want me to"

then miracle happened, YEY I LIKE IT. thanks LALA :)

selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin semua. tolong bawa kereta elok2 sebab semuanya nak beraya n makan lemang+rendang..bukan makan makanan hospital melalui tiub ya?

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

if i die young

2011-08-20T03:16:00.002+08:00

the song titled above is a very nice and sad song. plus the music is soothing. i love it.

please send this song to my family esp my mother n sister if i die young okay? please.

thank you.

back to reality. hiro's not with me anymore. had to let him to go the one utama rainforest pond bcos he's growing bigger. i cried to sleep for a week thinking of letting him go, but i keep him with me its kinda make me a sinner bcos i dont buy a big aquarium for him.

even till today, i still cry..thinking whether what did he eat? is he comfortable there? God.

i wish i am a cold hearted bitch who dont have to cry for small things.

who dont have to care about anyone and any living things.

even i cant see trees being cut because i think that gives them pain, lots of pain.

just the same pain that you feel in the SAW movie.

fuck. fuck my heart.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

too precious to let go

2011-05-18T23:37:00.005+08:00

here's another update.

i love dendson. no doubt.

love him so much, i dont want to let him go.

yes, i admit. i'm not a perrrfect girlfriend because i have many flaws.

my temper, my insecurity, my words that i used when i'm angry, my stupid thinking.

but he managed to handle it nicely and properly with full patience for almost three years.

i wanna keep on counting my days with him, i wanna share our love stories to our grandchildren.

i want to be the one who stand by him no matter what happens.

i did few mistakes with words and actions lately, got into his nerve and he started to react.

but then i realised, why let my ego and emotions control and take over my love for him?

i do not want that to give a permanent scar and effect on our relationship.

i told myself, "hey! this guy is one HELL OF A GUY. dont let go unless you cant find anymore solution to it *referring to the religion issue bytheway"

it snapped me right away, i love him. no way, i will never let go of this precious.we will go through every fucking ups and downs bcos we both are still deeply in love with each other.

and without us, we are nothing but a lifeless tiny human being in this world. we give so much strength to each other, we must fight and get rid of all the thick walls between us.

hopefully, our relationship will lasts forever. we're doing our best here, we love we care we want and we need each other. Allah, now its up to you. God bless us amiiiin.

precious precious precious

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

photos. and captions.

2011-05-18T22:57:00.010+08:00

meet baby amshar affan, my brother's lil precious, my current addiction.

still us, after many many years. still us, nothing's changed.

dear dear dearest sister and smiley amshar affan! i love them.

my favourite and loyal puncak alam partner named binks x)

oh another precious, aisyah. everyone's favourite little girl.

heart these two. never failed being there through my ups and downs.

puncak alam people. been close to some of them lately, and rinduuu!

okay those are my photos update. not all activities being uploaded here bcos i'm too lazy to search for the photos. you might wonder why his picture is not included in the post? hmm why? thats bcos i wanna do another post, just for him. right after this one hehe.

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byebye

love hugs kisses

after so long...

2011-04-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

havent seen this girl for seven years.

havent hug her for seven years.

havent talk to her face to face for seven years.

we've been keeping up with each other by social networks and bbm.

havent seen this boy after so long.

we got into a fight that made us not talking to each other.

we lost contact for few years.

two years ago, we met.

and we became friends again since then.

these two people, let me introduce you. my brunei babies, rafhanah and izzat.

they are my precious. been there for each other and i cherish these two till i die.

last week was the most memorable one for me.

we met and spent time with each other like nobody's business.

rafhanah came down from brunei, to visit us.

izzat was here already since he's studying in limkokwing.

and there we were, three of us, in kuala lumpur.

like izzat said : reunion accomplished!

will remember these great moments forever. until we meet again, mi love.

im busy with finals, will update soon with pics

will hear from me again

byebye

love hugs kisses

one of my happiest moments

2011-04-17T00:28:00.002+08:00

oh dear God. thank you for giving me such an opportunity to watch and adore this guy right in front of my eyes. i fucking adore himmmmmmmm!

i've been talking about bruno mars ever since his first single lagi and on 10th april 2011, i get to see him live. i dont care about anything else in this world, i just wanna see him. and i ran to the first row so that i will get a clearer view of him.

he, my inspiration. my true singer. ngaaa im crazyyyy!

call me lame, i dont give a shit. he's such a sweet heart. try proves me wrong, people :)

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

2011-04-04T00:14:00.002+08:00

eh PANTAT. kau jangan sampai aku naik tangan kaki aku ni ke muka kau dan family kau ehh?

you touch my family, im gna make sure you wont even feel the happiness in your life. not even once.

kau ingat, dari dulu sampai sekarang kau terlepas dengan semua benda?

gi mampus! dont think that the world revolves around you, DICKHEAD.

for your information, i will work hard to bring you down.

to let the world knows what a fucker you are.

kau dengan yang sorang tu sama je. dua2 mulut busuk macam tahi lembu berulat.

JANGAN SAMPAI AKU tampar kau depan semua!jangan sampai dua2 family mati.

will hear from soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

2011-03-05T00:36:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder...

am i important to you?

or i am just the girl that you need?

just a random thought.

Allah bless me in many ways. He guides me through everything. and for this one, He knows whats best for me. i can wait for the answer.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

in love, still.

2011-02-02T02:35:00.002+08:00

this man behind the christmas tree has always been the one that i have been in love with for the past two years.

and until now, my heartbeat still beats very fast every time i feel him near me.

is that love? to me, it is.

i miss him every single minute. i love him more every single day. and i dream for us to be happily married every single night. and him in my prayers is a must.

i love you. thats all i wanna say. thank you for being there.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

i just dont care.

2011-02-02T02:29:00.002+08:00

seriously, i dont.

you can talk about me how much you want to.

for how many decades you want to.

to how many people you want to.

make me the topic, youre making me more famous ;)

but remember, people are actually judging you while youre talking about someone they barely know. because these people are not as stupid as you. they know that if you can talk about me to other people, you can talk about them too.

and remember again, its me who have the same friends and people around me that loves me no matter what. and its you that people keep on leaving and your relationship becomes on and off for few times.

see how your life differs from mine?

thats because im God's little sweetheart, and youre not.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

missing a part of you here..

2011-01-14T23:29:00.004+08:00

sigh. just read the title. i dont wanna write more bcos i dont really wanna share this feelings here.

current mood : no fear of heights.

its also a title of a song from the tourist movie, nice one. very relaxing romantic song. sweet.

but when you give me love, i have no fear of heights. 
no fear of the deep blue sea. although it could drown me..




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byebye
love hugs kisses

the perfect wedding ever.

2011-01-10T18:41:00.002+08:00

i had a very awesome beautiful dream of a wedding this afternoon.

yes i was sleeping the whole afternoon today bcos i wasnt feeling well and i got an mc for two days.

wohooo :D

back to the dream.

i just couldnt explain in words how perfectly beautiful and amazing the wedding was in my dream few hours ago.

it is located in a beautiful resort, in the middle of the beautiful sea, facing a beautiful rock mountains. its so perfect. flower petals all over the sea surround the resort and i woke up before i could even see who are the lucky married couples. i wish those two are me and my future husband :)

its perfect. its just so perfect. i woke up with a smile on my face. its nice. so nice!

i can even picture the dream again n again now. its just so beautiful.

a wedding that i have always wanted, since the day i knew the definition of marriage is.

future husband : please? this wedding? please :)

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

2010-12-16T23:41:00.001+08:00

the feelings inside...are practically...

unexplainable and undiscovered.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

his flower, my sunshine.

2010-12-11T03:02:00.005+08:00

I don't need three wishes

cause I just need one

For us to never be finished

For us to never be done

When they say it's over

We'll just say I love you

And when they say it's finished

We'll just keep on building.

cause my love for you..it will never go away :)

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

turning a year older and a year added to our relationship :)

2010-12-11T01:33:00.002+08:00

i had an awesome birthday dinner at spaghetti grill at mid valley.

as usual, my best girl always put a huge effort on celebrating n making me feel so loved the night before my birthday and she never failed putting a smile on my face. a BIG smile indeed.

thanks ashtikaaa ;)

and 12 oclock sharp tonight, me and my baby have reached two years of relationship.

with ups and downs and mostly upsss and great beautiful memories we have with each other.

and we both are still counting the days, the months, and the yearsss :) i love you!

Allah bless us, amiiiin!

just want to say thank you for those who can make it, and for those who cant, its okay no big deal. its just another birthday. pray for me to live long so that we can celebrate again together hehe! all of us. thanks for the surprise, the gifts and the presence.

for those who wish me through messages and social networks, thank you so much!

your thoughts and wishes are much appreciated. sayang sorang sorang :)))

i love you guys till the end.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

comelnya!

2010-12-05T18:41:00.003+08:00

me and sayang went to the international cat show today.

honestly i think today is one of my best outing with him bcos both sayang and the catssss made me happppppy :)))

and then we had lunch at nandos. aaaaa full tummy, happier!

most of the cats are theseee adorable 'penyet' species.

like my baby, hidung penyet! awww comel. gerammmm GRRRRR.

dont believe me the cats are cute? come let me show u. i'll prove you wrong!

2010-11-13T15:19:00.002+08:00

i know we have like a month to go for our second year of being together2 do everything together eat together and punch each other hehe but yes yes yes we bought each other an advanced anniversary present already!

both are excited but its not the latest gadget. we both are so happy with it bcos now we can bbm each other with loveeeee hehehe ;)

weee! and both get to just bbm with our old friends back. so happy!

thanks love. much much much!

iloveyou.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

three fucking years.

2010-11-06T23:02:00.004+08:00

we have been living with each other for threeeeeeee years MISS BUBBLY.

and now i miss you already! haih.

yes i agree with you, SCREW PUNCAK ALAM for keeping us separated and not living with each other anymore. i hate every second of my time thinking about this..its really disturbing. period!

call me emo and a drama queen, i dont care..

NUR ARITQAH KHAIRUDIN...

i am going to miss our stupid crazy everyday talk.

i am going to miss our gossips all day long.

i am going to miss our relationship talk every night before we both go to sleep.

i am going to miss those cat fights and slap her slap there with you.

i am going to miss the cooking time with you.

i am going to miss the talking about fatsss in our body with you.

i am going to miss talking about my dendson baby with you.

i am going to miss going out for dinner with you.

i am going to miss buying lunch for you.

i am going to miss watching dvds with you, esp L word.

i am going to miss buying mineral water with you.

i am going to miss every single thing that we've been doing together since the past few years.

and most of all, i am going to miss you being you.

sob sob.

put in mind, that i will be there for you no matter where and when okay?

you mean a lot in my life and stay that way.

don't be one of those people that leaves. please? :(

dont worry, i will crash over your place for swimming and gym (hmmm gym?) HAHAHAHA.

please take care. love you.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

honestly...

2010-11-06T00:28:00.002+08:00

honestly...

i miss you.

sigh.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

hey hey bff ;)

2010-11-04T02:49:00.003+08:00

yes yes yes its his birthday todayyy.

he's such a grown up man now and he's turning more vain and player than before.

haihhhh no more the innocent boy. but its okay!!

i just want to wish you a happpyyyy birthhhdayyy.

sorry no big celebration. hope you like the muffins and starbucks drink from me and MISS PR ;)

no matter what happens, i always love and care for you okay? remember that! youre one of my important person. thanks for being there through my ups and downs.

i promise i will be there till death do us apart bff. happpyyyy birthdayyyy pretty boy! muah muah!

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

praying for their journey...

2010-10-31T21:16:00.002+08:00

both parents are leaving to jordan tonight.

exactly at 2.00 am, transit at dubai for three hours and straight to Amman, jordan.

they are going to be away from malaysia for 10 days. well 12 days to be exact!

and i am stuck here in shah alam while everyone gets to send them to the airport.

FUCK! why la esok ada exam? eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i did went back home yesterday and had dinner with the whole family. but its today and tonight that matters because last night i didnt even feel the tears yet.

but just now, on my way back here to shah alam, my eyes were watery because i didnt get to spend that much quality time with them since familiesssss come and drop by to say goodbye too.

haih. and mama sempat lagi buat dinner for me. terharu, and menyedihkan!

tak boleh makan, teringat kat mama.

and ayah said, "i love you..."

uwaaaaaaaa! fuck. emo bitch. nak period dah kot soon! haih.

i just want to say that i will pray for your safe journey back and forth and during the whole time you will be away from us. we love you and please dont forget us.

enjoy ayah and mama :)

p.s, i want this beautiful place from jordan please :)))))) heee!

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

when people ask..

2010-10-24T15:09:00.003+08:00

sometimes i do get these types of questions from my friends around me.

1. knowing religion is a big matter, do u wish you could turn back time so that you and him can just stay friends instead of being together?

2. isn't it hard for both of you in the future because of the religion and dont you wish you could just be friends to him so that you wont be heartbroken?

well, i know for the fact that religion is a HUGE matter and we both are trying to just go with the flow and see where it brings us. because for now, we went through the ups and downs in each other's life and our relationships smoothly and thank God our love towards each other are as strong as the first time we said i love you.

and i wouldnt even think of having a time machine to go back to my pasts and change everything even though i know as i grow older i'll start to think of our future and religion. but still i wont change back everything even if i have a time machine with me now.

why? because...

i wouldnt want to erase the memories that i have with him. and i want to make the mistakes that happened between us to stay that way because we are so proud we managed to go through every single shit smoothly and professionally. and the memories that we both have created with each other are too precious to not remember and thrown away just like that. its not that i didnt have good memories with my ex before but the memories with him are something that i would never want to trade in with anything else. its unbelievable and cant be described with any words. even though if i am going to end up with someone else in the future, still the memories we're gna have together wont be the same like i had with him because EVERYONE ELSE IN THIS WORLD IS NOT HIM :)

and we will try our best to stick with each other in the future. but God is the only one that has the right to make the decisions for our future. we will keep on cherishing each other as long as we could and i know that he is the perfect man for me. may Allah bless us. thank you.

i love you, dendson rayner francis :)

my one and only best chef in the whole wide world.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

happy belated birthday

2010-10-15T23:34:00.003+08:00

october 8th 2010 was an amazing guy's birthday.

i did wish him a day earlier and on the day itself because i wanted to be the first one to wish.

hope i was ;) hehe.

hey bestie, I MISS YOU. and happy belated birthday!

i hope you had a great one in sabah. please be good and hope a better and an awesome life for you. we miss you so much.

kalau lul ada di sini sama kami sekarang, mesti ada birthday dinner sudah sama geng2 penang kan? haihhh wish youre here. you dont know how much i miss you.

may Allah bless you always. muah!

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

an empty human being

2010-10-05T02:01:00.003+08:00

i dont know but all of a sudden i will get this feelings where you feel so empty inside and you dont know who to go to, what to do and what the fuck is it?

i dont know whether this happens bcos i miss my family, or friends or him or my pets? i really cant explain this feelings. its so empty. it hurts and i cant go through this anymore. its killing me inside, slowly..

i cried for the first few times and now i dont want to cry anymore.

i just want to be strong. please make me stronger and find the solution towards this emptiness that i am feeling inside? why?

i just dont get it. its the question that i have been asking myself for quite a long time. and i wish i have the answer..

i have few things to say to my baby here.

p.s, for the rest of my life i will be there for you. no matter how hard we have to go through all this i promise you i will give my best in everything i do. you're the only one who makes my heart beats fast every time i see you. and i thank Allah for that. love you. lets keep praying He will bless us one day.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

selamat hari raya!

2010-09-08T22:51:00.003+08:00

selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin semua :)

dayah ahmad minta maaf atas segala2nya lah okay? sorryyy everyone.

all of you are always in my prayers!

let me update a bit what has been happening in my life lately.

1. me and uitm shah alam

OKAY JE LA. takde la best mana pun! God. i miss penang so much like no words could ever describe it. haihh... its nothing compared to the food, the beach and the night market in penang. here is all about the traffic jam, no parking at each faculty, no easy studies, JUST SHOPPING MALLS MALLS MALLS AND MORE MALLS. i am bored! i have been living with this type of situation ever since i moved here to malaysia, and yes i want some changes please?

okay stop complaining. but i am okay with it. maybe next year will be worse since i have to move to puncak alam pula? hmm we'll see.

2. me and my family

we're okay. we're happy. its just that lately mama and ayah are not in their best mood so i gotta like be extra careful with the words and acts you know. its not because i dont want to get into an argument with them, i just dont want to tense things up. maybe they're tired with their work and all. i dont know. but all i know is that i cant wait for my sister in law to give birth sooooon this december, hope so. amiin! hehe. me and my sister are still loving each other till death do us apart and we have two new members in our family, SCOOBY and CANDY. ngeeee! my brother's cats. they're staying with us now since my brother bought a new house in damansara with stupid rules of no pets allowed. ugh! candy is pregnant. i cant wait to hold the little kittensssss grr grr grr. geramnya! okay enough. oh by the way, my turtle is still alive. yes HIRO is so fat i feel like biting him!

3. me and my baby

me and my babyyyyy..hmmm where to start? okay. we have our ups and downs for the past few months even till now. more than the usual i guess because of me not being around and had to stay in shah alam on weekdays and him being busy 24hours with his kitchen work in Pullman Putrajaya. very sad indeed because we communicate less nowadays since both are busy. but, we managed to get through all that because we do love each other you know. we cant just let go of the beautiful amazing memories we've gone through together and we have to be strong. and this is life..you work, get money, save up and get married! hehe. tak sabarnya! haha okay okay i am so hyper due to him feeding my tummy with the delicious tutti fruiti tadi. thanks love! oh yeah back to our relationship. we pray for each other's best and believe that if this is a blessed relationship by God, he will keep on giving us challenges and manage to go through all that to make sure that we both deserve his honoured blessing one day. go with the flow and have faith in each other. thats all. but no doubt, i do love him :)

4. me and my friends

WE ARE COOL. hehe. i just miss my penang crowd so much since masing2 dah buat hal sendiri. ramai yang tak sambung belajar so its been a long time we havent meet up huh? hope we could one day. miss you people very damn much! and currently i am comfortable with the people around me because they are awesome. even though we have our ups and downs juga but who cares? there's no life if there's no ups and downs right? and i love my bestfriends so much. you people are the best! muahhh sayang sangat.

i am done updating! panjang? hehe thanks for being very patience

will hear from me soon.

byebye

love hugs kisses

strong feeling

2010-08-13T19:13:00.002+08:00

sometimes, you do feel like theres something wrong somewhere.

and the feelings is very strong, it disturbs every second of your life.

i wish i have a super power to read people's mind and know what is going on.

because honestly, i am not that patience until my curiosity is being answered and fulfilled.

and..

right now, youre making me uncomfortable by making me feel this way. thanksss!

will hear from me soon

love hugs kisses

byebye

i could really use a wish right now

2010-08-06T22:31:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wish that i am well prepared for this. for the current situation and feelings.

for everything that i am going through right now, for every single second that i have to deal with.

but right now i am not prepared.

oh fuck.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

my very own magic carpet

2010-06-27T03:05:00.002+08:00

arghh my god. after watching sex and the city 2 with my sister just now, i feel like flying to abu dhabi with my friends and him! OH MY GOD I AM GOING CRAZY ALREADY HERE.

i wanna flyyy flyy flllyyyy and flyyyyy on my very own so called magic carpet.

i wanna be rich and fly using the emirates airline FIRST CLASS to be more specific.

bring me around the world without stopping, i dont mind.

just let me fly with you..

youre so beautiful. very!

arghh kill me now :'(

i know it wont come true this very soon.

p.s, sayang sayang..honeymoon on emirates. please? lets! :) ;) :p

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

far far away...

2010-05-25T19:41:00.003+08:00

he is far far far away from me currently.

at sabah spending time with his family for a week.

i know i am being gedik here because he's gone for a week je but still!

the feeling of being apart and separated by the ocean is A BIG DEAL TO ME.

okay, full stop. nanti terlebih emo pula ;)

i watched SHREK with him last weekend! best gila! puss in boots are so fat and cute and donky is loud as ever and he's so adorable when he's in love! hahaha! wanna go watch again la!

oh by the way, I MISS MY PUSS IN BOOTS. MY PERSONAL DONALD DUCK. MY BABY :(

fine, call me cheesy, i dont care. i miss him! this is my blog. my rights!

COME BACK SOOOOON! cant wait to hug you! and lets have ayam penyet together again!

nyummyyy!

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

super sweet seventeen!

2010-05-11T01:16:00.004+08:00

no that's not my age!

that is how long we have been together. seventeen months!

omaigaaaaddddd i can go crazy every time i talk about him and our relationship.

yes we do have TONS of ups and downs, happiness and sadness, laughter and tears but we thank God for every single thing that we have gone through together. i really do appreciate you! thank you baby! lets cherish our time together.

praying for this journey to lasts forever and hope only death do us apart :)

i love you!

p.s, i am a changed person now. i appreciate people around me more nowadays because you will never know when God will take your or their soul away. the death of my grandmother made me realise and think about this a lot. al-fatihah.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

do you remember?

2010-03-24T15:04:00.003+08:00

So long since you've been missing
It's good to see you again
How you, how you doing?
And how about we don't let this happen again.

Do you remember?
All of the times we had

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

i thank God, for now.

2010-03-19T19:16:00.002+08:00

i love rainbow.

by looking at it makes me happy already.

no, super happy!

and now, i feel like my life is like a rainbow.

for now la. anything can happen right?

i'll just go with the flow and let God do the rest.

first of all, i love my family. especially my angel sister who never stops telling me that i am her super duper number ONE. and my family never fails making me happy. and not to forget my cousins, esp my stupid monkey lover my other half half half monkey here in putrajaya!

second, i love my boyfriend. three words : he is awesome! he makes me happy. i just cant describe how much i love him. and we are two stupid lovey dovey dumb love birds. he's just, so perfect. he believes, i believe and we both believe :) seriously, i do love him. i really do..

third, i love my friends. they are a big part of my life. the reason why i am stronger each and every single day. they are my back bones. who makes me go through ups and downs in my everyday. even though we dont meet up that often but its okay, close to each other's heart is enough. and to my far far far away friends, you guys are still the best!

fourth, my hiro. you have been in my life ever since i adopt you. you are my forever baby. my forever and ever..youre mine :) i love you.

yes, these are the people (including my pet, hehe) that i love and cherish everyday.

i thank God for having them near me. and everyday before i go to sleep, i pray to God that please give me a longer life, or just another day because i wanna see them before i leave and i really want them to know that, no matter where i am, i will always love them. with all my heart, and soul.

hey guys, i love you.

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

frustration.

2010-03-04T15:43:00.002+08:00

FRUSTRATED.
WITH SOMEONE WHO MEANS A LOT TO ME.
SOMEONE WHO IS VERY IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE.
SOMEONE WHO I MISS, LOVE AND CARE.
SOMEONE WHO I CHERISH.
YES, you.

p.s, this is not about my boyfriend. me and him are doing just fine. great actually :)
love you baby.

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

my bestfriend

2010-03-02T20:08:00.002+08:00

i am so freaking happy of one thing right now.

dah lama tau about this, but talking about it again makes me happy.

MY BEST FRIEND HAS A STEADY LOVING CARING GIRLFRIEND!

OH MY GOD I AM SO HAPPY FOR HIM.

FINALLY! OFFICIAL!

AND HE LOVES HER SO MUCH!!

I AM HAPPY!

SAYA GEMBIRA :)

congratulations, kawan baik.

sayang awak.

will hear from me soon

p.s, be strong daddy's little girl.

will hear from me soon.

byebye

love hugs kisses

selamat hari raya :)

2009-09-18T03:02:00.002+08:00

selamat hari raya aidil adha everybody!

maaf zahir dan batin. wish u all a happy and great moment this year.
cherish every single second of it yeah?

sayang take care kat sana?kerja elok2.
jangan malas k?i miss you.
jaga hiro for me.
ingat saya di sini selalu :)

to my two gossip boys in penang,take care!
nanti dayah bawa balik makanan raya k?hehe.
happy karaoke-ing ;)

to my favourite people out there : LETS ROCK THIS RAYA!!

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

you.

2009-09-08T04:00:00.003+08:00

be dependent on me too much until you dont even realise that you've hurt me.

i am fucking pissed and deal with it.

right now, all i need is my own world and in it, there's just me and my selected people.
having fun playing with the biggest theme park ever and all i can think of is the beautiful scenery and the fresh air that i am breathing. aahhh thats nice. totally awesome!

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

Ramadhan this year.

2009-09-07T17:21:00.002+08:00

ramadhan this year is quite blissful for me.
the weather is not as hot as last year, classes are not as packed as last year and the people around me make it even more merrier.
thanks to Allah for giving me this chance to feel the greatness of ramadhan this year :)

well no doubt, there are ups and downs but i am handling it quite well and rationally.
from now on, i'll just go with the flow with whatever is going to happen to me.
will still be the a-bit-emotional-crying-baby BUT definitely not more than that.

a few miracles happened for the past few days.

first,there is still us :)
loving each other every single moment.
cuma..taknak letak high hope dah. its too pain in the ass people!

second,the bestfriend came back. the gossip boy, the gorgeous chef. yes him from the previous previous post. what past is past and everything is doing okay for the moment.
thank you, and i misssssssssss you!

third, my all time favourite girl here has a new look :D :D
coppppperrrrr white lady la dia.
so prettyyyy!makin malu la jalan dgn orang cantik ni.hehehehehe ;)

dah dah.
i'm off to get ready for berbuka.

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses

a song,called..

2009-09-04T21:25:00.004+08:00

entah by afgan.

tega nya kau dustai semua

janji kita berdua

Entah

masih kah ada cinta dihatiku

untuk mu..

Entah

kapan kah ku dapat membuka hati ini, untuk mu.

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

crashed into zillion pieces.

2009-08-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

when the heart breaks into not only million pieces, but zillion small pieces, how to get it all back together as one heart?

i'm trying, but its hard.
full of disappointment.

'i've done my part. its your turn now.'

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

i miss you, please understand :(

2009-08-26T22:40:00.005+08:00

where are you?
until now youre not talking to me?
i miss having my happy moments with you.
i miss those each single night we spend with each other till early morning.

why dont you just forgive me?
i've tried my very very best to ask for your forgiveness.

yet you still dont want to.

it is just a small lil misunderstanding, lets both get over it.
i'm waiting for you to say that you miss me, every single day.
hope you do understand how i feel, bestfriend.

p.s, elul omar i miss you so much.its been a month already..lets stop all this

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

i had fun

2009-07-28T14:47:00.002+08:00

our plan to langkawi jadi juga akhirnya.
the crowd, the place, the beach, every single thing was good.
except for this little fight i have with you-know-who.

haihh, i am sorry okay.
but please put yourself in my shoes.
i know we're both sensitive but you have to understand how i feel too.
but its really up to you.
i just wanna say that i miss you already :(

i want to thank everyone : all 12 people who make the trip the BOMB. thank you very much.
and currently, i am missing the time and moments we had together for four days straight.

lets stay together sampai ke akhir hayat bersama sama la eh? :)

to my budak gemok out there in penang, I MISS YOU. I LOVE YOU. thank you for everything too in langkawi. you're the sweetest. i feel spoilt, even till now. hehe.

kawan kawan, jom ke tempat lain pula! habiskan semua duit jomm.

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

she is my one of a kind

2009-06-26T21:52:00.003+08:00

my cousin.
named dalila.
she's my one of a kind.
who's always there for me, since forever.
who knows every single tiny bit of me.
she loves me for who i am, and never judge me.
she never fails giving me the best support and advice.
i love her so much, from the bottom of my heart.

she's perfect :)

dayah hearts you too, sweetheart!
have fun in paris. eat everything, shop everything.
bring me one french man. hahaha!
enjoy your every single day!
i pray for your safety,health and happiness.
you got my blessing.

p.s, to my all time favourite girl.be strong and face everything okay?i am here for you. remember, you rock everyone's life!sayang kau, teman penang dan selama2nya hatiku!

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

faith and trust

2009-06-19T13:46:00.002+08:00

faith and trust.
two different things that i hardly adapt to it.
kind of difficult for me to have faith and trust.
especially to you.

i know you've been asking me to have faith in you.
i do, and yes i do trust you too.
but there are things that you need to understand.
if those two are hard for me to give to someone,
when i am willing to give them to you, please work a bit harder to make me believe that those two important things are worth be given to you. if not, how can i let myself fall for it again?

haihh.. its difficult. thats all i can say. i am so sorry.

please think about it. thank you..

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses

an evening.

2009-06-03T17:03:00.003+08:00

its another one gloomy evening.
for me. without him :(
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
i missssssss HIM.
i miss my sayang.
i miss the superhuman!
i miss my one and only.

keRINDUan!!

i am still super in love with him.and i miss him, too much!!

will hear from me soon.

byebye

love hugs kisses

ohh waiitt!!

meet : my daisy duck :)

hahahaha! muaah!

kawan lama.

2009-06-01T18:18:00.003+08:00

ayah atau dikenali dengan namanya, amirul.
kawan lama yang sangat lama dan sering dibuli.
sering di maki hamun. oleh saya :)

tapi itu lah cara kami berdua hidup di muka bumi ini.
adoii skemanya. duhh, its a post abt you mirul. thats why its veryy skema.

all my families once asked me, "mirul tu, memang blurr ke ? or memang muka dia mcm tu? "
i answered, "nak buat mcm mana, dia dah dilahirkan dgn muka mcm tu."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

sorry ayah but i cant help it. they laughed too! you're the most hilarious person ever.
you're dumb and funny. and you're a skema law student. you're known as that among my family. deal with it okay?

he calls me like every month to know how am i doing and whats new but i never call him.
never. well i got my own reasons! i use CELCOM and he uses MAXIS and i use PREPAID and he uses his HOSTEL PHONE FOR FREE. thats why i never call him. he keeps on complaining but, he still calls. thats why i never take everything he complains seriously.

thank you for the nice chit chat and hang out. it wasss nice!
talking about that ex lady of yours was cool. or should i call her, whore? hehe.
at least we get to hang out for more than fifteen minutes. thats an accomplishment hey!
hehehe :) be proud!

and remember, a bitch is better than a whore. thats why you're always and still stick with me from high school till now. go and get new girls from the orientation soon in your university. maybe some hot chicks but please, not a whore dah ;) i know you're reading this ayah! ngehh.

goodluck and ALL THE BEST TO YOU in whatever shit things you do there.

dont drink and drive! hahaha.

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses

life.

2009-05-25T16:50:00.003+08:00

i used to say life is cruel. the world is cruel. no, people. its wrong.
the world is not cruel. the people who treat and control the world are cruel.

it is unfair if we say that life is not treating us right.
because God gives you his world for you to manage.
and He gives you a soul for you to live a life on your own.
so whatever happens, do not give up.
stay strong. because its not the end of the world.

i am currently going through one of the hardest part in life.
not telling you directly whats the problem, but yes its quite difficult for me.
but hey, you must not put a full stop to it. maybe a coma yes, not a full stop.
just stop thinking of your problem for a while,
dan TENANG. bak kata kawan saya si chipsmore. hehe!

family's busy with the entire occassion and we still have more and lots of things to handle for the november preparations. and i have to take care of the house well, thats my new job. say byebye to babysitting. sorry kids :( and at the same time, my heart feels empty without him by my side. he's so far away. far far far away. at times like this, i want him with me. i want to cuddle and hug him tightly. but we cant really expect that we can get all the things we want right?

dapat yang ini, kena lepaskan yang itu.

dekat dgn family, berjauhan dgn baby boo!

it rhymes! haha!

its okay! i can wait. just one more month. its okayy, dayah is a strong girl nowadays.
not that weak pathetic crying baby anymore. life and challenges make her strong.
but still have that attitude deep down inside. trying to throw it out completely!

so people, remember life must goes on. no matter what happen, just look in front and continue walking. challenges make us stronger, and plus a better person in the future. and the one who has the right and capable to stop it is THE ONE who's been watching us from up there :)

go and live your life to the fullest. achieve your dreams. and eat while you still can :D

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses

angah's wedding :)

2009-05-24T02:06:00.002+08:00

fuuuuh!

very very very extremely tiring!

haihh but now i am missing every single moment of his big day.

bernikah di Masjid Putrajaya. and it was successful. with just one lafaz.

my first brother.

ashraf a.k.a angah.

he belongs to someone else already.

we're sharing him with another family.

wait.....

uwaaaaa!Nooo!i love my angah. he's the laziest and coolest brother.

we have too many things in common!we love each other.

he's always my all time favourite bear in the whole wide world.

my pandaa :D

but heyy, congratulations love.

you're married.

she's beautiful. she's all yours now.

now you have a big responsibility!

please fulfill every single of it.

angah dear, i love you. we love you. the family HEARTS you. take care :)

will hear from me soon.

byebye

love hugs kisses

sigh...

2009-05-22T14:01:00.000+08:00

i'm tired.
i feel hopeless.

i surrender.

currently just following the flow and living life to the fullest.

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

random.

2009-05-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

like what she said "dayah please stop thinking about other people. think about yourself. prioritise yourself. stop sacrificing! do whats best for you. "

yeahh i am now thinking the same fucking shit. maybe i should pamper myself more. and even fulfill my needs and wants. grab opportunities and just reach my target for the future. do the best. get the MOST MONEY and happily married. like in the fairytales where they are happily ever after :) awwwww! hehe.

my activities nowadays are just sitting at home spending the most time with my family. loving every single moment. busy cooking. shopping for groceries. and busy handling both weddings. families from all over the place are coming down this friday. so gotta well prepared with food and everything! gotta hide HIRO in my daddy's room or he'll be shocked to death looking at the HUGE crowd. kesiann my babbyy.

my dream wedding is by the beach. or garden wedding is cute too. small crowd but complete to make me smile. haihhh lambat lagi dayah. not something that you should be thinking already! oops :) mama keeps on talking about sending me to other place for my degree but i cant agree on that yet, sorry ma. i know we both love the place but still, i cant leave this place, the family, friends, my other half, hiro and malaysian food. no, not ready for all that yet!

i misss my sayang. i miss my favourite girl. i miss my housematesss! i miss my penang crowd so much. miss all those happy moments. rinduuuu.

ohh yesss. before i said bye, here's a special post for my dearest bestest friend.

19th may 2009

happy birthday wan :)

you know how much you mean to me.

you've been there for me since part one man!

god imagine that! we've been through many fights and happy moments.

and you always make me happy.

youre the best. the worst too.

youre the dumb blurr asshole.

but still, i respect you for being very very extremely sabar dgn saya sorg ni :)

terima kasih kawan baik. awak la terbaik! hehe.

well, happy happy birthday to you.

wont mention the age, nanti rasa tua pula. hehe!

may God bless you always.

stay happy, doesnt mean you're single youre not happy weii.

wan proves it wrong! haha

kita jangan gaduh2 dahh ;p

and i wish you all the best in everything.

remember, i am always here for you my dear bestfriend.

take care nigga.

done!

will hear from me soon.

byebye

love hugs kisses

the birthday girl :)

2009-05-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

ezy. my bestfriend ever since i moved here to putrajaya. she is one hell of a kind lady i tell you. at first, we werent that close. we're just fine with each other. but then the more we get to know each other, the more comfortable we are. and i can just be myself when i am with her. and starting form five, dayah and ezy cant never be seperated. plus maliq now ;) he's the guard for us two girls. the very noisy chatty guard who everyone known him for JUGHEAD since he loves food more than anyone in this world does. hehe. from the veryyyyyy bottom of my heart ezy sayang, i love you. happy birthday. you're the best! always there for me no matter what. sorry if i ever hurt your feelings, but that makes us closer than ever. hehe! be good and take care always. SELAMAT HARI JADI kaklong pendek :) hehe!

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

silakan :)

2009-05-16T18:55:00.001+08:00

hello people :D

meet HIRO :)

my adorable two siblings.

she's the angel.

as you all know, him :)

always have each others back, us :)

still the four of us no matter how dramatic we are! hehe.

my all time favourite boys. misss you!

si gagah dan peminat2 wanita nya di belakang!

childhood friends. stay forever.

akhirnya...

goodnight everyone!

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

hiii :)

2009-05-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

i wanna continue with my updates

around april.
lots and LOTS of assignments. TESTS!i felt like i was living in hell during that time okay.its too much work. cant stand it.but i manage to go through them. thank you!
my super favourite girl helped me alot. thank youuuu :)
we MOVED OUT from the old place.to a nicer one. love this place so much.
the surrounding, the area, the environment.its perfect!
the new housemates are great.we cook together. clean the house most of the time.we have rules and regulations that we never obey. but hey that makes us a bunch of great housemates.we know each other's ups and downs already.
we have this great bond that let us click get attached just like that! we help each other through everything. i love you guys!

around may.
haaaah! the gossip boys are back from kuantan!!lambaaaaaaat sangat.balik balik je i had an argument dah with them but its alright. thats just us. i was too pissed off waiting for them to come back okay so do not blame me for being too ego and bitchy towards them when they suprised me at mcdonald.
didnt talk to them much. didnt look at their face too. marah sangat. hehe but the next day we all had a nice party at the usual apartment that we always gather.tak sempat swimming like we used to because the BIG BOSS gotta catch his flight to sabah the next morning. but he missed it. he was too drunk. padan muka ;)
and i made my boyfriend missed his flight back to sabah too. no one's fault but i kinda blame myself because i kept on praying for him to stay longer and guess what? God granted my prayer! he did stay. hehe. dont worry, he's at sabah already. the sister bought him another flight ticket. hehe! sorry sayang, muaah :)

currently.
at putrajaya. HOME SWEET HOME. workers doing some renovations inside home. my two brothers are getting married. yeahh together both of them. on the same day. they're too close with each other sampai kahwin pun nak sama sama. may God bless them always. cant wait! ohh yeah i forgot to mention. i have a pet. named Hiro :) its a baby turtle that me and sayang got in penang. first, my housemate got a baby turtle named keliwon but she died!i was so sad. couldnt stand it. dont worry, hiro will be well taken care by me and my brother. he loves him so much. hmm :( but i dont want hiro loves him more than me. grrr!

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses

the lady is back!

2009-05-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey.

havent been updating since i dont know when.kinda miss this blog. i am too busy with my life for the past few months.so i am gna update everyone with everything :D
it might take few posts to update about everything.i'll try to summarize them yeaa?

to mirul a.k.a ayahh. you've been wanting me to update the blog badly.awwwwwwww so sweet of you. please do well in exams so that we can finally meet here i putrajaya! here comes LOTS and LOTS of posts for you to fill your emptiness.HEHEHE ;) miss you dickhead!

so...

around FEBRUARY.
i had the worst nightmare ever. the worst thing happened to me. it will always stay forever in my mind. GOD i thank the ALMIGHTY that everything is over.thank you very much to my favourite friends who are always there for me through my ups and downs. all the help and love you guys have given me are priceless and its the greatest feeling ever. and to all the lecturers and pengarah who have been helping me alot. no worries, i remember every single of you guys till forever. to my brother and his girlfriend, YOU ROCK MY WORLD and I LOVE YOU TWO ALWAYS!and to my parents, thank you for being the most understanding ever. i know you two are quite disappointing but heyy things happen :p hehe. and thank you for still pampering me till now. love you both!

and of course to my favourite man in the world. my precious. you are always the best in eveything. you bring the best in me. and you never fail making me feel the happiest girl alive. thank you very much sayang :) i miss you. too much!

around MARCH.
i went to perth with my parents. looking out for a place for me to study but i havent agree on anything yet since i feel so not right leaving my family friends and boyfriend here in malaysia. no i cant. i love the country. the people around me. the FOOD! hehe :D well i had most fun there since i had the chance to meet few of my brunei friends. awwwwww they are so adorable and I MISS THEM LIKE BIG SHIT laaaaa. i stayed with them for four days and they really did make my days. i miss them so much until i have no words to describe it dah. to the three friends who i respect and love you three more like my own siblings, please take care and be good kat sana. i will be joining you guys one day. just dont know the particular time yet but you all know how much i love the place right?its lovely. i will visit you three again and lets go to HARBOUR TOWN and have some JAVA JUICE ;) hehe. muaaah :)

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses.

ups and downs

2009-02-11T23:25:00.001+08:00

from the start, i have my ups and downs with him already.
i realised that earlier. and it doesnt make me weaker, it makes me stronger.
the feelings towards him keeps on loading up in this heart of mine.
i do care for him, i do love him.
he completes my everyday, every minute.
thanks to him, i have faith and trust again.
i admit i cant fully trust him, but still he made me think more positively now.
thank you again, for the lovely boy i am with currently.

we just had a big argue. and it makes me really angry.
thank god i have people around to keep on reminding me take a deep breath and chill.
my pretty bitch keeps on supporting me, telling me this and that.
my adorable blurr specky and RALPHman who keeps on asking me to have faith and trust him.
and my all time favourite gossip boys out there have been giving me the best moments ever even by just talking on the phone with them.
one day, i'll visit you two in kuantan. i'll find my perfect time. one day yeah, my pretty sayangs :)

its been two months since we are together, i learned so many things from us and still am learning till now. first we're happy and happy and sad and sad. then we argue, then we confront each other and make things straight. then we're happy again and bring out the best in us. you're always the opposite me, in good ways. well, in bad ways too sayang. hehe! thank you for everything sayang. even if i am being a bitch to you, i know we still sayang sayang kan?hehe. thanks for the necklaces. i love them!

happy two months together

and

happy advanced valentines

p.s, and to all of you, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. be happy even if you're single. just appreciate yourself the most on this very own day yeah. muaaah!

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

missing you people :(

2009-01-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

sometimes, the feelings of 'missing someone' do give you a huge effect right?i miss a lot of people. a lot. ever since i moved back from Brunei, the whole world has completely changed. sometimes to a better, but sometimes it turns worse.

i miss my old friends. those who i spent my six years fighting around with, bitching, escaping classes, got blacklisted due to the wrong doings at school, got busted eating during assembly and classes. i miss all that. all the surprises you all gave me, i always miss that. i want to go to the super market in front of our school together again before heading to class. or we always swim every sundays. and practise netballs while cursing those idiots and selfish bitchessss every evening. haha! rinduuunyaa.

and i do miss my current friends too. they are everywhere. around the world. i feel like gathering them back together and dance with them all night long like the whole world belongs to us only. i miss the opening and end of our semester ceremony, the hanging out till late night at the beach doing nothing but talk about life, and i always miss the mcdonald place, you guys. thats where we meet everybody and play poker or any other games. we laugh, we make fun of each other, we dared each other. and even by writing all these things make me smile already. i miss you all :(

i miss you too sunshine. the twenty four hour you. the one who never says "sayang i have to go now, i gotta go back to my shift. i am sorry my break is not long enough this time." hmm not just that time sayang, all the time. and i love it when i can get back in contact with you at nights. but i hate it when after the long waiting and when you're done with your work, i am too tired to even stay awake for hours messaging you. and when i wake up in the morning, i regret. because i miss you so much. i really miss you. dont worry babyyy, no matter what happen, i'll be strong for you. this is just a small test that i have to go through in our relationship. i think i can go through more than that. i just wanna tell you that, you really do make make me think more mature when it comes to love and relationship. i appreciate that doctor love ;) ;)

muahhh. i love you.

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

2009-01-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

hello two thousand and nine. new life, new world, new year, new days, new resolution, new schedule, but still the same old me.

being here in a place called penang is a nice feeling since i get the chance to bully my annoying fart lover favourite girl and hanging out with the 'chuck bass' and my great super bestfriend, the specky! and also the tiang ralph man. well the best of all is, i get to see my sunshine anytime i want. but still, i keep on missing him every second. arrgghh!

the worst part of this new early two thousand and nine are my boyyyssssssss are not around. where are the two favourite kuantanists? aaaaaaa balik laaa. fuck the practical, i want you two here. like realllly want it so badly tau. and another worst thing is when you are doing your practical, you couldnt give much attention to the girl. its hard when si bunga wakes up every morning and wait for the sunshine to give her morning kisses, even though those kisses are given through text messages. and the most painful part is when you wait and wait and wait more longer and longer and more and more for him to finish working. and when he's done, you yourself is tired and about to go to bed already. its just hard, but nevermind. cinta, kasih dan sayang si bunga untuk matahari sorang ni tetap sama dan makin hari makin bertambah. yess i do. muuah!

naufal and fairoz, you two are bunch of bad people. mean people. jahat boys. next time i dont want to come and make the effort to ask the two of you to come and visit me dah. you know how much i miss you guys kan.. grrrrr. benciiiiiiiiii!

p.s, ayah mama akak angah atah ali.. adik rindu :(
saudara mara ku terutama sekali aiman dan dalila.. dayah rindu :(
kawan kawan sejati ku.. perempuan gemuk ni rinduu :(
dan kekasih ku, bila nak lawan kick boxing laaaagi? si bunga rinduuu :(

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

kembali ke penang.

2008-12-28T01:21:00.000+08:00

i am off to penang in nine nine hours time. ohh god cant believe my holidays are over. for real? dah sebulan setengah ke? hmm. macam tak percaya. yeahh time passes without us noticing.

i am going to miss my whole family (like all of them, hmm all laa. including uncles aunties and cousins) my dear bestestest friends of all (god, thanks for the chocolates!) and my roooooooom :( :( i am gonna miss everything in the room. sigh!

but going back to penang makes me happy too nowadays. i have my other half bitch there, god i miss you girl! and i also have my perfect sunshine who's busy doing the practical but still i get to see him anytime :D sukanyaa sayannng!! and i am going to meet my precious friends there. wowweee! now i am smiling, but my room? hmmm. sedihnya, byebye room :(

alright,i am OFF to sleep and going to CIAO to penang soon.
dayah ahmad, behave. be good. dont disappoint your family. and stay positive there :)

p.s, byebye 2008 hello 2009!

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

2008-12-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

life is quite tiring when you dont have enough rest. when you cant put your feet not moving just for a lil while and when you cant even let your hands relax without doing any work for a minute. goddd mummy daddy please come home now :(

since the parents are not around, the lil daughter here goes around the places in six days straight. well not everyday but almost all the time. and the brother is being a selfish brat by just sitting at home and adore the gamesssss so much till he couldnt even get his ass off the couch to buy lunch for me and him. what the fuck is wrong with him? spoilt!

money is running out, life is about to become dull soon. need more and more cash to make the life shining brightly back like it used to. no seriously, there's something missing in me when i know my financial condition is a lil weeee bit tight this holidays and in the future. i keep on thinking about it sampai tension kadang2. godd!! please pour me some cash. yess i know people say money is not everything, but remember, everything NEEDS money. not just a few cents or dollars or ringgits, even a single tiny thing costs you a life nowadays. haiyooo! bencinyaaa :( need a job, need more cash for me to have a better life in the future and pergi cuti cuti bersama mereka yang ku sayangi!

well... the weekend was great. went shopping with my one and only sister AND my brother's girlfriend. it was great, got few that i want. but i am still looking for what i really really need though. then the day after, my cousins came down. to be more specific, my little dickhead baby aiman. awww what a gorgeous clever human being he is. very clever. i love him. we went shopping together, we read magazines together, have our lunch together and swim together !tunggu kawen je belum. but taking care of the house alone without my mummy and sister around to help is fucking tiring weii. tak tipu. call me the super woman now. or aiman's new mother :p

five more days left, then i am off to penang for my fourth semester. haihh another belajar time yang memenatkan dan membosankan. bencinyaaa. nasib laaa ada my wonderful people in penang tu that makes me feel comfortable staying there most of the time. thank youuu.. and sayannnnggg i cant wait to see you. hug you tightlyyy and will never let you go :) i missssssssss you love. hope you're being a very good chef in training there. hehe, behave chinta! i am coming to ruin your days baby, just wait. be patient ;)

will hear from me soon

byebye

love hugs kisses

nutty nutty you :)

2008-12-17T15:15:00.000+08:00

Doesn't matter what your friends are telling you
Doesn't matter what my family's saying too
It just matters that I'm in love with you
It only matters that you love me too

It doesn't matter if they won't accept you
I'm accepting of you and the things you do
Just as long as it's you
Nobody but you, baby, baby

Doesn't really matter what the eye is seeing
Cause I'm in love with the inner being
And it doesn't really matter what they believe
What matters to me is you're in love with me

(You're so kind)
Just what I asked for,
you're so loving and kind
(And you're mine)
And I can't believe you're mine

Doesn't matter if you're feeling insecure [eh its always me kan yang feel insecure? :p sorry love!]
Doesn't matter if you're feeling so unsure
Cause I'll take away the doubt within your heart
And show that my love will never hurt or harm

Doesn't matter what the pain we go through
Doesn't matter if the money's gone too
Just as long as I'm with you
Nobody but you, baby, baby

Doesn't matter what they say
Cause you know I'm gonna love you anyway
Doesn't matter what they do
Cause my love will always be with you

Nutty-nutty-nutty my love for you
I can't believe my dreams come true
I've finally found somebody whose heart is true
And best of all you love me too

And nutty-nutty-nutty my love for you
I can't believe my dreams come true
I've finally found somebody whose heart is true
And best of all you're nutty-nutty-nutty for me

p.s, i was listening to my mp3 and suddenly i feel like listening to this song. and i realised that the lyrics are sooo good and perfect. yes, perfect for the sunshine and flower. hehe :)
its like my all time favourite song since i was in form, what eh? cant remember. but its nice.
i love it! sayang i miss you. ya, saya merindui awak laaa. yaa, awakkk. awak sorang je.

saya amat gementar dengan keputusan peperiksaan yang akan muncul di depan mata nanti.
mungkin saya patut beli tiket bas ke penang, in case the results is as bad as expected.
boleh lari dari ibu dan bapa dan keluarga yang juga sedang menunggu keputusan ku. argghh!!
saya menyesali kerana tidak belajar bersungguh sungguh.
dah dah, i'm off.

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

alahai!

2008-12-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

i've been feeling sad since i came back from penang.just like he said
" i felt like my blood rush from the heart straight to the head when i lost the sight of you and i never felt like this before, sayang "

yes love, for your information i felt the same way too. still am feeling it right now. i miss you so much. i felt so lonely and sad and there's an empty space inside me without you around.

god, i really miss you my pretty boy.

you've been a 24 hour free man for the past few weeks for me. i can just call and message and even chat with you anytime i want. with all those every late night talks on the phone kan?but now, you're doing your practical already.

i am so happy for you because i know you cant wait for your practical kan but i feel a lil weeee bit sad since i wont have you around all the time dah.

but i have to understand kan sayang? i know you're going to be busy and tired and you wont be spending that much time for me like you used to but its okay, we always have each other. thats a promise we made right :) muaaah! and now i miss that naughty flirty look that you love doing to make me geram. aaaaaaa! :(

thank you dear god for ending my one week of having a high fever. i am back in business baby. cooking for my family makes me happy and i feel so appreciated everytime i see them enjoying the food. they love it, most of the time. and my parents are off to brunei for five days starting this thursday so i'll be having the car and home all to myself. i know my brother is around but he's invinsible to me since he's always with his games and playstation. god! but its an advantage juga. all i have to do is prepare him lunch and i am off with my activities :)

suddenly, i am thinking what my life would be in the future? am i going to be happy like princess giselle in enchanted ? yesss i hope so. or am i going to be sad and life full with darkness like i used to be for the past few months ? uhuh. i dont wish that to happen since i am sick of it already. but all i know is that i am currently doing okay with my life. you can call me a happy princess with people (family and friends) around me keep on pampering and loving me with all their heart. and please call me a girl who's on cloud nine and on top of a happy planet because she feels blissful delightful thankful and lucky to have an angel by her side whenever she needs him, he's always there. thank you very much. three words for you sayang. dont have to type that down, you know what it is.

muaah muaah muaah. eh, NOT ENOUGH. more muaah muaah muaah and hug hug hug. hehe!

will hear from me soon.

byebye

love hugs kisses

people, attention!!!

2008-12-12T16:51:00.000+08:00

i wanted to say a big tHaNk YoU to everyone who wishes me on my birthday.
thank youuu very much. really appreciate it. love you all :)

alright, here comes the big one. december 11th 2008 : we are officially together.
yessss, thanks to my perfect star, he proposed. a very cute way. and brave :)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! comel sangat. i feel like biting him. comel sangat sangat.
okay here's the reason why i said its cute. trust me, it is.

he is a very shy guy. he doesnt know how to make the first move. he's not afraid but he's just shy. when he wanted to propose me, he was a lil bit 'menggelabah'. he walked around, in and out for almost fifteen minutes. i was looking at him weirdly but i tend to ignore his weird attitude. then he sat down and proposed. without him realising, he was actually kneeling down and made us as an 'official heart and the heart keeper'. aaawwww, now you know why i do love him kan? he's just too good to be true. cant take my eyes of you.. hehe,cheh!

and right now, i am MISSING HIM LIKE CRAZY! stop letting us be apart from each other, dear God. please.

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses

updates updates!

2008-12-01T18:42:00.000+08:00

i am currently having an extremely high fever for the past few days.
well i went to see a doctor this afternoon and she said if the antibiotic is still not working for me, she needs to check me for this thing called 'denggi fever'

grrr. i know!its scary..i've been through that fever twice already and i dont wish to even experience another one. please God, please :(

i am so sick sitting in my room all day long and having this heavy headaches. i want all these sickness to go awayyyyy soon pleaaaase. i hate it.

my booboo babyy boo is at home alone right now. i pity him. well stupid Sunway Hotel didnt manage to get accommodations and transportations for those who are doing their practicals there. stupid idiot dumb hotel! i hate it. menyusahkan orang je tau.
i'm glad that he knows how to survive all by himself. thats why i called him a super human :)
haha.i miss you love. a lot. more than you could think of. muaahhh!

my xoxo boys are at kuantan already doing their practicals i bet. i hope they are doing just fine there. hope they are enjoying themselves. i know they will. kalau bosan bosan, turun lah kl ke penang ke..may God bless the two of you. i miss you guys too. hugs!

i'm having my headache already. i better stop now. haiihh..

p.s, my favourite girl.sayang la aku ni banyak banyak selagi aku masih sihat. haha!!

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

you're my super human :)

2008-12-01T18:25:00.000+08:00

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How’d I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, on my knees

But that’s the moment you came to me
I don’t know what your love has done to me
Think I’m invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life…
Don’t know what you’re doing to me with your love
I’m feeling all super human, you did that to me
Super human, heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human

Strong
Since I’ve been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I had it all along
I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere but love inside of me
It’s unbelievable to see how love can set me free

It’s not a bird, not a plane
It’s my heart and it’s going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I feel like I can do anything
Going going, I’m gone away in love

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

tolonggg lah saya :(

2008-11-26T03:11:00.000+08:00

saya terseksa.
jiwa kacau.
dengan kerinduan yang melampau ini.
hmmm.. :(

hahahaha! god.fucking jiwang ;p

but its true. i misssssssss him a lotttt. aaaaaaaaaaaa! i cant stand it anymore.
i feel like buying a helicopter and bring me to him straight away anytime i want.

i want to hug him. tightly. with my arms. wrap around him.
i want to kiss him. gently. with my lips. against his.
i want to hold him. softly. with my hands. on his face.
i want to be with him. always. with my faith. upon him.

where are you, dark knight? i need you to comfort me to sleep.
three words : i miss you.
haih....so far. far for me to reach you. goddd!

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses

just for you ...

2008-11-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
The More If I Need To Reassure You
My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You
If I Want It (have It)
When I Ask You (You Provide It)
You Inspire Me To Be Better
You Challenge Me For The Better
So Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter

Let Me Help You
Take Off Your Shoes
Untie Your Shoestrings
Take Off them earrings
What You Want To Eat Boo?
Let Me Feed You
Let Me Run Your Bathwater
Whatever You Desire, I'll Aspire

If you Want It (have It)
say the word and (I'll try it)
And Whatever I'm Not Fulfilling
No other woman is willing
Cause I'm gonna fulfill ya with ma body and spirit

I Promise Ya I'll Keep Myself Up
Remain the same chick you fell in love with
I'll keep it tight and I'll keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed, keep rockin' the hottest outfits
Cause it's love you need, to give it is my joy
All I wanna do is cater to you boy

Just let me cater to you
cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my boy
baby you blow me away
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want just let me Cater To You

Inspired me from the heart
can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man
I'll put my life in your hands
i Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want just let me Cater To

You Give My Breath, My Strength, My Will To you
That's the least I can do
let me cater to you
Cause your beautiful
I love the way you are
fulfill your every desire Your wish is my command
I wanna cater to my boy

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

home :)

2008-11-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

i am back home.
but i dont feel that happy because my ring is not here with me.
and so are my two favourite boys.
and where's my favourite girl?
missing in action. i am confused whether she's a digi or maxis user now?
haha!
godd. what the fuck is wrong with me?
i dont feel right.
my feelings just dont feel okay.
i miss him so much.

i will try my very best to enjoy my one and a half month holidays without them.
without the six of us :

the perfect wonder woman a.k.a my favourite girl.
the fat eating machine a.k.a the blogger
the 'what past it past' a.k.a the gorgeous boy
the 'friends come and go' a.k.a the lil drunk toilet boy
the 'dark knight who sleeps like a bear' a.k.a my sunshine :)
the 'biggest gossip girls fan ever' a.k.a chuck bass

fuuuh. its hard. just hard. and my favourite girl please take care of yourself.
i dont want anything like 'what happened to you early this week' to happen again.
please? stop. for your own good. and as the person who loves you much, i want you to think about it okay? love you, sayang.

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses

i hate this part :(

2008-11-20T03:31:00.000+08:00

i miss my whole crowd already.
i hate this part when we have to be separated for quite a long time.
it is long.
not just a month, but few months since some of them have to do their practicals so far away.
godddd.
life is unfair. so unfair.
when i have wonderful people around me, they will either leave me temporarily or permanently. aaaaaaaaaaa!
i feel like shouting. motherfucker!!
i miss my favourite boys and girls. i missssssssss all of them.

for the two of you who's going so far away from me kan, macam boleh je sebenarnya nak dekat kan tapi nak jugak jauh kan..takpe lah. yeahh, for the two of you, i am going to miss all the perli and ejek and kacau and bahan2 for the whole five months.
please come back to penang ASAP and the first person you have to meet and see and hug and kiss is me!
take note of that.

'in this life we all know friends may come they may go'
'whats past is past ahh'

two fucking quotes that i am going to miss so much.

hmm, finals are over. most of the papers suck. dont ask why. dont you ever ask why.
i think mommy's going to kill me when the result is out and daddy's going to stop giving me the most valuable thing on earth, money :( nooo. that can never happen!

hmm, i cant get him out of my mind. i miss my sunshine. my dark knight. my superhero. my artist. my tattooist. my ring. my precious love. my sayanngg.
i feel like kidnapping him and bring back home and dont want to ever let him go.
i want him. i need him. i miss him. gooodddd!! help me.
please help me. i feel so weak and empty :(
and pening. and i want him as my panadol :)

will hear from me soon

byebye
love hugs kisses

birthdays :) :)

2008-11-16T01:31:00.000+08:00

4th november 2008
happy birthday my hero classmate. hehe ;)
i hope you like the advanced birthday present i gave you.
use it properly, dont come to me next year and say that you've lost it.
i'll say fuck you then. ngehh ;)
you're the sweetest. the nicest. the best.
be happy with your girl. jangan gaduh2 ;)
muaaah muaahh :)

6th november 2008
happy birthday mr kfc boy. hahaha!!
i love the outfit. nak beli boleh tak abangg? hahaha.
when are you going to redeem your birthday goals? ngehh!
make my bestfriend happy, then i wont haunt you down. trust me.
be good. senyum senget selalu :)

7th november 2008
my nellie furtado happy happy happy birthday!!
god i miss you girl. where have you been?
dah lupa ke bilik kat baiduri tu? ;)
queen N, you're old. deal with it.
but no matter how old you are, you're still gorgeous. and sexyyy. *wink wink*
come back here and get your present.
taknak balik sudah, i'll see you in hell.
i missss youuu gossip queen. come back bitch.
i have a LOT to update youuuuuu!
come bacckk. happy birthday.
i wonder what your boyfriend gave you ;)
may God bless you our queen.
muaah muahh love you :)

13th november 2008
my orientation partner.
my floor mate.
my housemate.
my bitch.
my bestfriend.
my other half.
my diary.

happy birthday girl. i am so happy that you're a grown up now! ngee :)
hope you'll have a blasssssst birthday there in kl.
i know you will. with lovely people around you.
and my pretty friend, be happy on your birthday.
nothing can ever make you sad on this special day.
and dont forget to come back to penang.
you still have me and another paper to go. hehe ;)
god you're 19 already. wait for few more days and i'll join that age.
haha! i miss you so much.
come back come back. happy birthday, lovely.
i pray for your happiness with your family friends and the kfc boy. hahaha!
muaaah muaahh love you :) always do.

fuuh. penatnyaaa la type. i need a rest. goodnight :)

will hear from me soon.

byebye
love hugs kisses